Every now and then you read a sentence of such devastating simplicity it just rocks you back on your heels. You know, the old lightbulb exploding trick.
Chapomatic quotes Jason from Just Another Soldier and his (emailed) article on the Tao of Soldiering. I'd read Jason once before, but forgotten him. So glad I went back and read it. Thanks to Chap for the tip.
Jason talks about war, and fear, and what suffering means from a soldier's viewpoint. He talks simply, and eloquently, and he gets his feelings across in a very readable fashion. This para in particular struck me:
It is not necessary for the novitiate to buy into any of this. But when he’s into the twelfth mile of a forced road march carrying nearly his own body weight in gear, he learns that there is a landscape of pain he never knew existed. Once you’ve learned that there is no real limit to what you can endure, you’re on your way to understanding that you can do just about anything so long as you allow yourself to have the will to do it.
That's the trick, isn't it. Allowing yourself the will to do it. So many things we think we can do, but at the last hurdle, we fail to muster up the will to try. What defeats us is not our capabilities, but our willpower.
I know this is not revelatory. It's basic life stuff. But sometimes you surround yourself with complications, things that make decisions seem more difficult and complex than they really are. It's another way of procrastinating so you stay in that safe zone where things can't go wrong because you don't allow them the chance to.